Furiosa Bit

Furiosa.

Do you know one of these kinds of girls? Or women… however they identify at the moment. She still looks 22 to me. Barely aged a day. And I’m working on her Xmas playlist. I think there are too many slow songs because when I started compiling the songs on there I was in a sad place. Hadn’t even spoken to her in like… what? 6 years? But I’ve never let go of her. She’s the kind of friend you never forget and the kind you never leave behind. As in never let go. And I haven’t. If she ever reads this. I don’t even think she knows that Furiosa is one of her nicknames. Even better. She’ll be reading this right now and maybe smiling… Oh what to do… What to do… DAH. There. Now she smiled. We had these sound files on our Nokia and Motorola phones of us just screaming in random locations like in the dorm rooms, in a tunnel, at our college. And we thought it was hilarious to play them all the time at people or the security desk as we walked by.

I have a collection of sound files on my iPhone. They aren’t the original sounds we had, but they have the same gusto that the sounds did. That’s just what we called the files. The Sounds. I wonder if there’s a band called The Sounds. That would be epic. But something tells me it would be some folky band and that’s not really my thing. I don’t do e de folky musica. Arrivederci.

I’m listening to your Xmas mix right now just to edit it. FYI.

I think my Co-Star got pissed off this week because yesterday it told me not to let my heart get filled with stray cats. And now today it’s telling me “Don’t let pigs pull you into the mud today”. Earlier in the week it was other like “Don’t let this world fuck with you”. I mean I guess it would be a nice poster to have in your room. Maybe on the ceiling when you wake up and look up to see “Don’t let this world fuck with you.” You just wake up with a sense of “I’m gonna shove the first person I see today because that’s what that poster does to me.” (Even if they are holding a baby). But Furiosa, she doesn’t let this world fuck with her. It’s something I’ve always admired about her. She’s one of the strongest chicks I’ve ever known. And an Aquarius so she’s completely insane. I’m on the cusp with Pisces. But she’s full Aquarius. That’s why she’s so hard to read. Either that or we just have a weird relationship.

Now that I think about it, I don’t think I’ve said more than an essay to her. Like a one paged essay. In the 20ish years that I’ve known her, but I know I love her with all my heart. She’s just one of those friends you can’t replace. And you’d never try to replace. You’d rather feel the misery of missing them than try to fill the void with someone else. Because that someone else could never and would never be able to fill that hole in my heart. So instead of talking to her I just make her playlists.

That’s honestly how I’ve always spoken to people. With music. Since I don’t have to talk to music… it always sings at me (which is perfect because I can’t hold a conversation now to save my life) so music just sings at me all the time and I pick the ones that I think Furiosa would like or things I’ve wanted to say to her for years or things that I think she’d love in a song. It’s my taste though so I don’t expect her to keep them. But I try to pick songs she’d like. Like right now I’m listening to Against the Current. I like them. And I think she’ll like them too if she hasn’t already heard them. They are like a mix of Avril Lavigne and Halestorm. Now a Halsey song. “Gasoline” it came out today I believe. Or yesterday. It’s a big deal to me to know. I don’t know why it’s just respect for the Artist. Since that’s their style at the time. And I haven’t heard Halsey very much so I’m not sure if her style sounds different… she’s just one of those artists that if a song pops up and I decide to listen to it and end up liking it, then that’s that. I’m not a fan. I’m an acquaintance.

Anyway, I’m going to keep listening and editing accordingly.

Have a good day.